OK, so this is next week! The symbolism of these and in this color is love, happiness and friendship. Friendship feels to me, like time, warmth, care, space for the full exposure of myself. That is exactly what it takes to open all the way. To see them open makes my heart warm and next week when i'm again in NE portland, the entire bush will be singing in celebration.
We had some cool days. Then we had some overly warm days and the peonies are gone now. They celebrated in full bloom and lent their petals to the soil for to nuourish the next generation of blooms.
Menopause is feeling like this to me, this full bloom-ness that is just too much for some people. How different it feels from the half opened state and how close the end of feels. My whole self feels sparks of clarity about exactly the climate i need to feel all my feels in full bloom, and what makes me stay closed.
i don't often get what i want, but i'm feeling what I'm feeling in full bloom!